THE SUBMARINE CAPTAIN

      He dreams that there's a pier out over the water. Several people are standing at the end of the pier. They're using a radio to communicate with the submarine that's attached to the other end of the long cable running off the end of the pier into the waters below.

      On board the submarine, the Captain is talking to the people on the pier. He's asking them to let out more cable. He wants to dive even deeper. They tell him that there's no more cable to let out, that that's all of it. He decides to cut it then. The people on the pier are worried. They ask him, "how will you survive without the cable to connect you to the surface?" He responds, "We will do what every independent nation has always done; we will take care of ourselves."

      They dive always deeper, getting to the very bottom of things. Towards the end of their dive, seawater begins to leak in through the seams. It's becoming very scary, although the Captain knows in his heart that they'll make it.


     Shattered by the breakup of his seven-year marriage with Pamela and by the loss of any day to day contact with his son, Jonathan, he's been thrown back upon himself. There isn't much left of him now besides work and school. As a result, he's going over the edge, into the waters of the unconscious.

      He's the submarine and the Captain and the crew. He's severing his connection with his old life and with the few people he does know. Some part of him, represented by the Captain, contains and expresses the impulse to go always deeper, to get to the very bottom of things, so that when he does reenter life again, he'll do so as a real and whole person.

      He knows that this dive into his depths, into the depths of life and consciousness may last awhile. He also knows that he'll survive it somehow, just as any independent nation would. He may take in the waters of the unconscious. He may become contaminated and act out some of his unconscious stuff, but he know that somehow he'll come out of it sane and who he truly is.

      The main thing he understands is that he's diving openly and willingly into the unconscious, seeking out that energy and wisdom that lies buried deeply within himself. He also knows that he has to die first as ego - his life has to first fall apart as it is - in order to allow for soul and wholeness to enter into it. He must die before he can be reborn.